Fifteen years ago I lierally became a zombie through a chemical injury at work . It took several years to figure out what had happened as not one of the dozens of specialists encountered equated the drastic symptoms to work. I firmly believe had I been a man someone might have asked did I work with any hazardous substances.
Hopefully today 2005; they'd be more aware that women need to be asked questions in all areas also. My life as it was ended. Several years later; when I became well enough; we moved to a small circa 1875 log cabin in the midst of 120 pristine forested acers in the wilds of Ontario, Canada.
We call our new home Apsley Acers - at the same time I turned 50 years of age. With clean air, clean water, organic food and lots of rest; I now have re-aimed the 2nd part of my life in a new direction. After much research things certainly did not look like I was destined to get back to my old life - I made a conscious decision to make the "best" of my new one.
I became a herbalist and a wildforager; I learnt which plants would enhance my health both medicinally and culinarily. We built a new green house and a new studio; the latter is aptly named after this small new Shang-ri-la where I have come slowly into blossom once again. A major problem arose due to the still many non-functioning neurons within my brain - my ability to mix colour had disappeared. I was devastated as painting had been my life long love. If anyone had asked me what had I visualized myself being when I grew up - the answer was always to succeed as a painter. Imagine! I am now just learning to paint all over again in a new style with straight colour with acrylic - it is an interesting new journey and I am slowly regaining confidence..
This is such a terrible invisable injury. Even today after an exposure, my brain is very sore; fortunately I discovered a new wonder, jewelry design; the slicing and polishing rocks for pendants; which when melded with colourful wire and beads from around the world and my off the wall design base; allows me to produce magnificent pieces of exquisite rustic jewelry - unique wearable art. Thus utilizing these new inner talents makes working in my studio once again a joyful process. The acknowledgement of one's creative work by strangers is so uplifting.
Thus when my life handed out lemons with a bit of thought and ingenuity I have started to make Lemonade; it is very drinkable. Seldom do I go into the world outside; as it still makes me very ill - as most man made chemicals with a petroleum base make my life a negative for weeks. Definately my life is different, but compared to some in this world I am still very lucky - I still have way too many ideas - too many things to create - and no time to sit about feeling sorry for myself. BUT; I sure wish mankind would wizen up before it is too late. Before too many people, especially children are poisoned like myself.